#TBT = Throwback Thursday! — “GOOD GIRL”


I’m a “good girl” so I’ll probably never have a man
Because most men don’t understand
That I’m trying to live by God’s plan
I know I’m a Christian and I’m not supposed to cuss
But most men don’t want a “good girl” the want a woman they can Fff…
(Well you know what I’m saying)
So for that reason men don’t be feeling me
They don’t comprehend my choice of celibacy
And my deciding to live by 1st Corinthians chapter 6 verse 18
“Flee fornication” is how that verse starts
So now some men say that my choice is breaking their hearts
But that I doubt. I don’t have that clout.
All I know is the values I must be about.
The goal of my existence is to be godly
Honoring the Father by purity in my body
So I walk in this conviction
Happy in my restriction
Choosing no friction
Trying my best and never doing the least
And to those who still don’t get me I just wish you Peace.

(originally posted on livejournal.com Feb. 3rd, 2005 at 10:52am)

Still on the theme of celibacy and virtue. At this point I had gone about a year without intercourse (I had dated someone but we didn’t have sex). I know it is a subject that very few people relate to in this day and age, but for me at the time poetry was how I expressed emotion and how I dealt with whatever was in my life and/or on my mind at the time.

#TBT = Throwback Thursday! — My Breath Fixation

My Breath Fixation

I want to breathe
Deeply freely shudder breast heave
That sweet intoxicating breath of arousal
But I pray I can contain until the love is spousal
Heavy in my chest the breaths come
Hyperventilating waiting for that special someone
Can I make it?
My fast, will I break it?
How much longer can I take it?
This jones, can I shake it?
All I can do is pray
And wait not so patiently for the day
That I can let loose
This breath noose
Breathe out and breathe in
In absence of sin
Deeply freely shudder breast heave
I want to breathe

(originally posted on livejournal.com Jan. 31st, 2005 at 2:17pm)

In 2005 I was celibate and although I was not a regular church goer, I still had the idea of saving sex for marriage as a theme in my life. I did not adhere to that in recent years and even though I choose to be celibate again currently, I don’t know that I will wait until I am made “an honest woman” before indulging again. Time will tell.


#TBT = Throwback Thursday! — BIRTHDAY (for Kevin Miranda)

For those who are just joining the program, every Thursday I am posting old poems in chronological order of when I posted them in my original livejournal.com blog. Some will be horrible things that I should never share with the public, but I’m sharing them anyway. This week’s entry isn’t a masterpiece, but it isn’t absolute dreck either. I’ll let you be the judge though! :-P 

BIRTHDAY (for Kevin Miranda)

Kind words on the day to celebrate the birth of you
Expectant of the things to do
Visiting with friends and family
In remembrance of what was and anticipation of the things to be
Now is when we take this time

Memories mingled with dreams
Instant sentiment at the edges and seams
Realization of your special worth
Anniversary celebrating your birth
Nods and smiles surround
Definite joys abound
A day of thoughts sublime
(originally posted on livejournal.com Jan. 31st, 2005 at 1:06pm)

… Did you notice? The poem is an acrostic of the birthday boy’s name! :-)

#FAF = Follower Appreciation Friday — Thank you! ^_^


I got a notification that I have been on WordPress for FOUR YEARS as of today… how time flies! ^_^

THANK YOU SO MUCH to those of you who have been with me since the beginning and to those of you who have joined me recently! :-)


#TBT = Throwback Thursday! — Today I Will Write

Today I Will Write

I will write
I will put words together and attempt to be creative
I will reach into my mind and soul
To try to find that place
Where inspiration and originality live
Examining myself
Working towards the goal
Of moving beyond prolific
Into prophetic
Hoping to have quality
With my quantity
I will write

(originally posted on livejournal.com Jan. 31st, 2005 at 7:13am)


#TBT = Throwback Thursday! — You Don’t Know (song)

You Don’t Know

There seems to be
Some kinda need
For folks to keep
Talkin’ ’bout me
All up in my biz
I won’t put up with it
All I know is
That they better quit

Because you really just don’t know

Refrain / Chorus:
You don’t what my hood be like
(You don’t)
You don’t what my click be like
(You don’t)
You don’t what my people be like
(You don’t)
You don’t what my life be like
(You don’t)
You really just don’t know

I hate when
When people say
Talking out they neck
They don’t know anyway
Just gossiping
Out wit they friends
Wondering ‘bout my ends

But you really just don’t know

Refrain / Chorus

You don’t know what you’re talking about
(What you’re talking ‘bout)
You just like to run off at the mouth
(Run off at the mouth)
Acting like a silly trick
(Silly trick)
Folk like you really make me sick
‘Cause you just don’t know

Refrain / Chorus

(Refrain / Chorus, Bridge, and ad lib to fade)


(originally posted on livejournal.com Jan. 15th, 2005 at 12:59 pm)

Obviously back in 2005 I was much more into flowing in the style that was more Black and not as ethnically neutral as I tend to write now. Sadly, I don’t remember the tune to this song and my recordings were on a USB drive that was lost a few years back. :-/